I made it through another week. Hooray! I am excited because i hired a full-timer today, which means i am fully staffed! I got a personal "way to go" from my boss, which was very cool. It seems like things (as far as staffing goes) is starting to come together.

This is weird! I am on jerem'ys parent's computer, and i am so jealous of their big monitor! I think i am going to steal it. We are here because his parents are in pittsburg, so we are puppy-sitting. Ths dog adores me! I can still make him pee himself just my comming in the door! That is a rare gift!

Well, i had my first appointment with a counselor on thursday. Well, there was a little confusion, so instead of meeting with a woman i had never met for counseling, i actually met with the missions pastor of our church, who happens to be a guy i know pretty well. He was the first of all the pastoral staff that either jeremy or i had a significant conversation with. So, it was pretty cool. He gave me a lot to think about... his exact words were, "You are really good at being gentle as a dove. It's the Wise as a Serpent part that needs work!" he mentioned a concept i never expected to be an issue: politics. It seems that i am totaly non-political, and the fact that i have "played the game of life"in what seemed to be, to me, a very honest and open way, means that i have not played it as wisely as i could have.

It's funny how people can tell you something, but then someone comes along and says the same thing, but this time you get it. That's what this was like. I always thought of politics as sneaky, and dishonest. But there is a such thing as being clever and shrewd: trapping the one who is trapping you, while keeping your integrity. Jesus did it all the time! I had forgotten that side of the equation.

IT was cool because i appreciated his unique perspective. God paired me up with just the right person. :)

hello again.

I haven't had a phone call from my store all day! woo!

I had to go fight with lenscrafters. I got new lenses 2 months ago, and they have never been right. I finally got a 2nd opinion from another place, and they said the Rx was wrong. So today, i had to go and demand some money back from lenscrafters. In other words, i became the people i hate. Well, i had good reasons, i want to be able to see. (I know, silly...) Well, they at first tried to tell me that i couldn't get any money back because i had them for 2 months already. I pointed out that they were only really 1 month old because they had been remade 3 times! THen they tried to hold the fact that they gave me free frames agains me. (They broke my other ones trying to adjust them) THen, she said she would talk to her boss "sometime tomorrow" and she would see what could be done. THen, she says "Why don't you just return them completely" And i responded, "That would be very nice, except i need to *see* until my other glasses come in, and i didn't think you would appreciate it if i waited another 2 weeks to come in with this problem." THe nerve of these people! First they try to keep as much of my money as they can, then they try to hold the fact that they broke my frames against me, and then they expect me to not see for 2 weeks until my other (better) glasses come in! I just hope this lady's boss had the brains to give me what i want, or i will show back up with a can of wop-ass and a spray gun! Grr!

in case it's not obvious, im a little edgy this week. This counseling appointment is the day after tomorrow, and i am trying to get things in some sort of easily tellable order. I have been doing a bit of re-living of things, and i know she is going to ask me to do a lot more of it, so i am trying to prepare myself. It has made me a little cranky. Today, it seems to be far from me, so i am okay. Y'know how when something is bothering you, there are days where it's very close, very near the surface, if not completely spread out on the surface, and there are other days where it's not so much? well today it's not so much near the top. Good thing, i needed a break. PLus, i think i'm getting hormonal, which makes me eat chocolate and break things. :) (what a refreshing combination!)

I"ll let you know how everything goes!

yesterday was my day off, and it wasn't a very good day. I had to go to work anyway because someone had a flat tire and couldn't make it in, and there was no one else to cover the store. I haven't had a day away from the store since i got back from vacation. makes me want to curl up in a ball and make the world go away.

I can tell i'm feeling lousy when i stsrt snapping at jeremy. I made a few horrible comments about how he should get off his but and find a job. I was ruthless. but we made up :)

I think i am going to get myself a pedicure on my next day off. Not that i can afford a pedicure, but i think i may do it anyway. Depression knows no credit limit. actually, it does, and maybe i won't do it because i will just feel guilty afterwards.

oh, time to go back to work!