ALRIGHT PEEPS!!!

(i was waiting for a chance to say that!!!)
hi. Did i say that i was "back" before? I guess i wasn't really back, so much as visiting for a night. I am feeling much better now. Wanna know why? I got a new job!!! Perhapse my suicudally depressing tendancies are a thing of the past! Maybe they'll be back tomorrow! Who Cares?? For tonight, the world is a jar of peanut butter, and i intend to eat it all!!!

This new job is really cool. I am working at my church as a full-time receptionist/secretary type thing. THe idea being that oncve i learn the basic duties of my job (which will take about 2 days, mostly so that i won't keep answering the phone with "Fine Jewelry, this is Stephanie") they will find things to do that "are fitting with my skills and talents". Best part is that they are matching in hourly pay what may salary was at lazarus. Also, i am working 4 10 hour days instead of 5 8hour days. This means i am working from 8:30 to 6:30 with a 15 minute commute each way, instead of 9:00 to 6:00 with an hour commute each way. for fewer days a week. in an environment where people actually act like humans. well, like GOOD humans, i should emphasize that. God is good.

so to celebrate, i went to visit my parents in ALabama. It was fun. I did lots of sitting around. It drove jeremy nuts. He said that my whole family could be snipers, becasue they could sit there and not move for days at a time. but it was fun. :) I was a little mad at them though when i got up late one morining and found out later that while i was asleep, my parents decided to lecture jeremy about not having a job. They said he was being too picky, and that the job didn't have to thrill you, and sometines we have to settle for less than we want. They had no right to lectuer him--he isn't even theirs! and they tried to get me on thier side too, but i shut then down pretty quickly. I know they want to help, but they really de-railed his motivation. He felt like a complete failure, even thought they were trying to encourage him. They had been saying all week that he should find out what he liked to do, and they even helped him brainstorm the things that were important to him in a job so he could find something he really liked, and then before he gets a chance to even try to look for them, they tell him he's being too picky, and should settle. I think that that outlook is cynical and sad. ANd very depressing for someone with such talent and passion as he. WHy should anyone have to ultimately settle for less than want they are called to do?? Hasn't he settled enough? He already has himself expecting not to be able to make a living as a musician, which is a tragedy because he is so talented. He will never be happy with just playing a bit on the weekends, and now they thing he should get a job that will force him to compromise even that. It has taken me two days to help re-build his determination, and it makes me mad. It breaks my heart that people can cause so much damage to another person by trying to help, because they don't know enough about the person to know what will help.

....okay, so i seemed to have rambled a bit just there...

SO, ...um...yeah...i am really looking forward to the extra time i have gained. Hopefully i will be able to keep up with you all a bit better! I look forward to hearing from all of you!